whoopsie. changed the address. its

http://apoplectique.blogspot.com

now. heh. changechange people!

sorry for shifting blogs all the time...jael and i have set up a joint blog though, so heres the new addie:

http://apoplectical.blogspot.com

change your blogs people! i will add u soon! just go there and leave me a comment when you have changed it yeah? so sorry again and thanks

maybe america isn't so bad after all. going there soon seems to be getting better and better.

rather, whats left in singapore for me is getting less and less.

im running away. i know. so what.

i can be your hero baby
i can kiss away the pain
i will stand by you
forever
you can take my breath away

wish i had someone like that.

ern's right. only him nick and i left. where'd everyone go? why as everything changed so &*^&*^%^%*%*^ much? (no vulagrities there; just an adjective that i cant be bothered to think up of right now)

i dont want anything more to change. sometimes i feel like im that girl in that show. titanic. dont laugh; its true. i'm just sitting there, on the floating door in the middle of nowhere, blowing a whistle and rasping "come back, come back.." to a lifeboat that's sailing further and further away. And there's nothing but corpses around me, lifeless eyes staring up to naught. And that faraway lifeboat seems so warm, so full of hope, so reassuring, and everyone on it is hugging each other and smiling, and laughing, but..but it's a place i don't belong.

it's a place that i don't want to belong, anyhow.

i doubt anyone would understand that last sentence. *laughs wryly*

all i can say is, what i thought was an unsinkable ship just sunk. and it definitely took a long time to sink, too. Just that i was merrily unaware of the gashes along the hull as i went about the rest of my life.

and now it's lying at the bottom of the sea, broken into halves.

except for my case, it's probably smithereens by now.

Hello 31/05 here are the retarded pictures we took with ronnie macdonnie. *sniggers*

such a profound embaressment.

Picture 1
and
Picture 2

Enjoy, dearies! esp leon. i know you want 'em. haha.

As usual, the moment i get into a school, i'll get blacklisted. *rolls eyes* STHUPEED STUDENT COUNCIL hahahaha.

Joined Science Council and Touch Rugby. WOOO it's SO fun! Touch, i mean, not SciCo haha of course. :P you think what, i brain transplant ah.

*grins*

i'm having another nosebleed.

what's wrong with me??

maybe i AM gonna go bonkers soon.

My phone bill EXPLODED!!!!!!!

90 *&^*^&*%&* bucks!!

i spent 58 bucks on sms! freak freak freak.

i.am.SO.screwed!!!

screwyscrewyscrewyscrewyscrewyscrewyscrewyscrewyscrewyscrewy

call me from now on ok! CALL CALL CALLLLL

shit

shiiit...

how am i ever gonna pay it off??

:'(

OKOK fine i'll admit it. tj aint that hellish after all. :) i mean, of course some aspects still disappoint me, but things are looking up :D

i'll continue in this perky mood if i make it into all the events in auditioning for. haha :)